Yesterday my husband picked up the urn…I didnt know how I was going to feel when he brought it home…I kept myself busy so as to not look at it…I felt completely numb…I didnt cry or anything…I didnt know how to feel…have I just accepted the fact that she is gone??? We left it on the mantle but I dont know where we will put it…the urn is a perfect cube just like she was perfect and we inscribed Olivia Grace Ng plus the words Forever and Always…I am in a haze and I dont know where my tears are for my baby…I miss her so much but where are my tears…
For my baby girl…
O precious, tiny, sweet little one, You will always be to me
So perfect, pure, and innocent, Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and of your life, And all that it would be
We waited and longed for you to come And join our family.
We never had the chance to play, To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now and listen to you giggle.
I’ll always be your mother. He’ll always be your dad.
You will always be our child, The child that we had.
But now you’re gone…but yet you’re here. We’ll sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy There’s love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong. We’ll forget you never –
The child we had, but never had,
And yet will have forever.