With all these damn emails and commercials about Mother’s Day all I want to do is drink the day away. I told my hubby that I will not be able to participate in any celebrations for his Mother. I need to take care of my emotional and mental state that day. I just cannot see myself celebrating anything in honor of that day. I know I am Olivia’s mother but she is not here. She is my angel so its hard to even think about her not being around. I should have been complaining about how big I was and when I would be delivering her since I would have been about 38 weeks at that point. Its just to much to even think about and the thought makes me cry. My due date was May 29th and that day is def going to be a doozy and I am not looking forward to it all.