I went to a psychic medium on Tuesday because I wanted to connect to my daughter and see if she was ok. I feel guilty that my body did not protect her like it should and with my due date coming I just feel super depressed. The medium was recommended by my therapist so I took the chance and see what it was all about. He def knew things about my past that nobody knows and he did say that Olivia was ok and at peace. I needed to forgive myself. He also indicated that I would be a mother of two children in the next 2-3 yrs which was something I am super paranoid about. I want to be a mother to a living child so badly that it hurts. I am still a bit on the fence on the whole thing but that could be my rational mind. He said that she comes and visits me around 3AM and I wrote a post a couple of weeks ago that I would wake up at 3:26AM for no reason but maybe the reason is that she is coming to see me but who knows. I really hope that everything he said was true and Olivia is ok cause I am really trying to come to terms with what happened. He did say if she survived her soul would be tortured. I broke down several times during the session cause it was just hard to hear some of the truths he was telling me. I wish she had come through more just to know more about her and how she is but you cannot make a spirit come through. I was also able to tape the session so I can hear it from time to time and when I do get pregnant it will be interesting to know if its at the same time he said. I am def interested in knowing more about the afterlife and spirits now.