So I am in a bit of a dilemma. Today I am 12 weeks pregnant and normally women share that they are pregnant around this time since they are just about out of the first trimester so they feel “safe”. We lost Olivia at 23 weeks and my close friend lost her daughter at 40 weeks so I dont know if I will ever feel safe. My hubby does not want to tell anyone until I cant hide it anymore. My therapist says that he is trying to protect himself. My concern is that for me to feel more connected to this pregnancy I cant hide it and thats how I am feeling. I want to be super happy and share the good news since its great news but I am also weary that good news can turn to bad news in an instant. I am not trying to announce it to the world but to very close family and friends who would be there to support us if something tragic did happen. I hate living in a paranoid and anxiety filled world. I want to have an as normal pregnancy as I can given the situation. Its so hard to find a happy balance but I am really trying to find comfort in my uncomfortableness.