Do you ever wonder why the pain comes in waves? I think its total torture. I will have a good 3-4 days with no crying or overt sadness and then BAM I will cry at a song or just thinking about Olivia. It hits you like a ton of bricks. I was crying in the shower and my hubby comes and asks me whats wrong and I said I should be worrying about my baby shower right now. Its just so damn hard some days!!!
My name is Cindy
Living a More Purposeful Life One Cent at a Time
The Journey of Making a Baby Despite the Diagnosis of Diminished Ovarian Reserve
Creativity From Every Corner of the Northwest.
A healthy lifestyle made simple.
a girl without fallopian tubes had a baby!
the random ramblings of a stay-at-home-mom
living in the middle | navigating infertility
Mommy After Infertility
Not your average Librarian
A little bit about a lot of things.
Because all stories are better with a few twists and turns.
A blog about managing PCOS, motherhood, and marriage.
The road to conceiving a baby....enjoying food and life along the way
My life, as I figure it out
Rewriting
Food & inspiration
An IVF Story for the Over 40 Crowd
Endometriosis & Infertility. The road to overcoming invisible illnesses
Simple enthusiasm for life's obsessions!
This Roller Coaster Called Life... 
I can relate. Sometimes I find myself still grieving the loss of my son a year ago. It’s not that I haven’t healed, but that I miss him. Some days I’m consumed by my current pregnancy and others I’m longing for him.
Hang in there, my thoughts are with you….Hugs!
Bree
Yes, horrible, excruciating waves. I’m in a wave of extreme anxiety atm. I’ve never had a day without tears.
I am so sorry…
Yep, been that.. still doing that… My baby would be due in just over a weeks time and the pain I thought I had started to heal from comes back more frequently these days.
Its so horrible to even think about it…I want to just sleep the next month away
HUGS! It takes time. I know that’s cliche, but it’s true. I’m over a year out since my loss and I still have days where I cry over the loss of my son. You’re still so close to it. (You haven’t even passed Olivia’s due date yet.) Be gentle with yourself. The first two weeks are absolute hell. The month after that is more grey-ish. After that, you’ll realize you are having more good days than bad ones.
The hurt never really does away (or it hasn’t for me yet, at least). It just get easier to deal with in some ways.
It just takes time.
Thank you!!! It’s going to be a rough month with Mother’s Day and my due date coming up ;(
I think everything comes in waves… Hang in there
I’m so sorry and am sending you hugs.